I'm in transition right now, after twenty something years of 'knowing' that the LDS church was the only true church upon the earth ... after years of seminary, a full-time honorable mission, a temple marriage and years of scripture study I now no longer believe anything that I once believed. It has been over the past year that I have discovered line upon line, precept by precept that the very foundations of everything I've been taught and had a 'testimony' is not what I thought it was. Studying the detailed history of the church from the church's own marterials have opened my eyes and I cannot close them though I sometimes want to put the blinders back on. I am currently in the position of so many, I've discovered all of these things, yet I am trapped by family (both immediate and extended) into not revealing any of it for fear it will destroy every relationship I have. It is sad and constricting to not be able to take a further step and to not be able to discuss anything, but for now I am stuck in the trap and I am unsure how long I can stay. I've read so many blogs of others in similar situations or whom have already left, or whom are 'new order mormons' and I've enjoyed virtually all of them. It is very comforting to know others are going through the same thing. So I thought I would start my own blog and document my journey, more so for my own reasons, it will be interesting to look back and see how my thoughts may change over time.
So why Gadianton Robber? I read the Book of Mormon almost 10 times, was a whiz in seminary, could quote scriptures left and right and since I know the stories of the Book of Mormon so well, I was always deeply fascinated with the Gadianton Robbers and their secret combinations, I would constantly think of how these groups must exist today, conspiracy alert! So it is quite fun now, knowing that none of it is true that there never were Gadianton Robbers and quite frankly feeling silly to have ever believed it, well ... I thought why don't I become one and start my own blog where I can spread my secret combinations ... who knows I could bump into Korihor or Kishkumen out in the bloggosphere. So that's it for my intial post, hope to not be too boring and to add humor as often as possible.
So why Gadianton Robber? I read the Book of Mormon almost 10 times, was a whiz in seminary, could quote scriptures left and right and since I know the stories of the Book of Mormon so well, I was always deeply fascinated with the Gadianton Robbers and their secret combinations, I would constantly think of how these groups must exist today, conspiracy alert! So it is quite fun now, knowing that none of it is true that there never were Gadianton Robbers and quite frankly feeling silly to have ever believed it, well ... I thought why don't I become one and start my own blog where I can spread my secret combinations ... who knows I could bump into Korihor or Kishkumen out in the bloggosphere. So that's it for my intial post, hope to not be too boring and to add humor as often as possible.
